Well hello there!
Hey everyone!
Yes, I know, a lot of you have been worried about me, because most of you know that this is just NOT my year. My mom is sick, my dad is an ass... Until the perfect relationship came along. Right? Well, I'm saddened to say that my "perfect" relationship wasn't so perfect after all! And, as you can probably guess, we broke up. More like "I got dumped" but shhhhhh for the matter of this blog, I dumped him. Pfft. lol. Anywho, I just thought I would come assure you guys that I'm fine. I know I haven't been great with food lately, having eaten maybe half a day's of food in 3 days, but I'm slowly getting there. You just don't feel like eating in circumstances like these. All those who read this blog (not the weird internet people I haven't met though!) know exactly why I'm sad. But I'm not a bitch like that, so I'm not gonna repeat what he did online. It's not that I don't feel like it, because I really do, but... Meh.
As you all know, there's a chick ritual called "the breakup song". Well, I have 3. lol. David, I know I totally stole OUR breakup songs, but you know I love you anyways! Anywho, here they are:
I hate myself for losing you, Kelly Clarkson
Behind these hazel eyes, also Kelly Clarkson
Enough cryin', Mary J Blige
And, because I'm just cool like that, I'm gonna include lyrics!
I Hate Myself For Losing You
I woke up today
Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
I have myself to blame
For the state I'm in today
And now dying
Doesn't seem so cruel
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway, anymore
I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
You got what you deserved
Hope you're happy now
'Cause everytime I think of her with you
It's killing me inside
Now I dread each day
Knowing that I can't be saved
From the loneliness
Of living without you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
What do you say when everything you said
Is the reason why he left you in the end?
How do you cry when every tear you shed
Won't ever bring him back again?
I hate myself for loving you
Behind these hazel eyes
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything felt so right
Unbreakable like nothing could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am
Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it
Can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together but so broken up inside
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No I don't cry on the outside ANYMORE!
Enough Cryin'
Cause the sex was good
You had my mind
And I I let you come back every time
You would Violate and cross the line
And you knew that I would be the type
To always wait so patiently
Thinkin' you was comin' home to me
Well damn, I never heard the keys
Or Felt your taps sayin' "are you asleep?"
Don't wanna play house no more
I Was so dumb to think you were gon' marry me
I've got to be out of my mind to think
That I need someone to carry me
I've done enough Cryin', cryin', cryin' (Cryin', cryin', cryin')
It's time to say Bye, bye, bye
It's time I do something for me
Been chasin' this fool around
Thinkin' he gon' hold me down
I would follow his lead
Thinkin' I would be the one he kept around
All that I needed: Real commitment
And I really couldn't see it
You're not the real man you said
You was gonna be in this relationship
So many men think
That all a girl needs is to be sold a dream
But I won't fall for it
Well you had me
The next dude will gladly pick up where you left off
Ice me
Wife me
You ain't gon' Have me
Enough cryin', cryin', cryin' (cryin', cryin', cryin')
It's time to say Bye, bye, bye
It's time I Do something For me
Any volunteers to go egg... Ha. As if. I learned my lesson the first time. Well I got a best friend out of it!
Ok, thank you note time!
Imane: Mon amour, ma vie... Tu m'as sauver la vie au moment ou j'voulais juste pas etre sauver... Je t'adore! We're gonna get through this together! And we're "bringing sexy back! YUP!". Ah, pis j'm'excuse de t'avoir stresser avec mon absence de "mangage"... J'ai manger un bol de soupe aujourd'hui! Woot!
Sare: Thanks for your amazing hug yesterday, I needed it! Love you! "Men suck, men suck, men suck FUCK" forever!
David: Well, it's official you've lost your "ex" title. But don't cry! It's gone on to someone much more worthy of the pure hatred involved in those two letters. Thanks again for all the happy happy joy joy last night... I needed someone to tell me I was pretty... And mean it!
Cody aka Drummer Dude: Thanks for calling me all the way from La Waterfall (get it? La Chute?!) last night, although it's long distance and putting such a... hmmm graphic image in my head. Let's just say, I didn't think about much else but what you told me to think about. My own private hypnotist! Yay!
Vero: Merci pour le calin hier, pis les gentils petits mots d'encouragement!
Anik et Stevou (!): Merci d'avoir endurer mon radottage, mes cris, mes pleurs pis mes rires niaiseux. Vous etes la pour moi les deux depuis plus d'un an, et j'vous adore! N'importe quoi que je peut faire pour vous depanner, vous me faites signes!
To all you other peeps I'm forgetting: I love you all, and thanks for making me smile/laugh/cry at a time when I needed it! It means the world to me to know that I have such great people in my life!
Ok. Enough about this. (Wow, longest post in my blog's history!)
News:
I'm getting my tongue pierced! :D
Yes, I know, a lot of you have been worried about me, because most of you know that this is just NOT my year. My mom is sick, my dad is an ass... Until the perfect relationship came along. Right? Well, I'm saddened to say that my "perfect" relationship wasn't so perfect after all! And, as you can probably guess, we broke up. More like "I got dumped" but shhhhhh for the matter of this blog, I dumped him. Pfft. lol. Anywho, I just thought I would come assure you guys that I'm fine. I know I haven't been great with food lately, having eaten maybe half a day's of food in 3 days, but I'm slowly getting there. You just don't feel like eating in circumstances like these. All those who read this blog (not the weird internet people I haven't met though!) know exactly why I'm sad. But I'm not a bitch like that, so I'm not gonna repeat what he did online. It's not that I don't feel like it, because I really do, but... Meh.
As you all know, there's a chick ritual called "the breakup song". Well, I have 3. lol. David, I know I totally stole OUR breakup songs, but you know I love you anyways! Anywho, here they are:
I hate myself for losing you, Kelly Clarkson
Behind these hazel eyes, also Kelly Clarkson
Enough cryin', Mary J Blige
And, because I'm just cool like that, I'm gonna include lyrics!
I Hate Myself For Losing You
I woke up today
Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
I have myself to blame
For the state I'm in today
And now dying
Doesn't seem so cruel
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway, anymore
I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
You got what you deserved
Hope you're happy now
'Cause everytime I think of her with you
It's killing me inside
Now I dread each day
Knowing that I can't be saved
From the loneliness
Of living without you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
What do you say when everything you said
Is the reason why he left you in the end?
How do you cry when every tear you shed
Won't ever bring him back again?
I hate myself for loving you
Behind these hazel eyes
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything felt so right
Unbreakable like nothing could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am
Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it
Can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together but so broken up inside
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No I don't cry on the outside ANYMORE!
Enough Cryin'
Cause the sex was good
You had my mind
And I I let you come back every time
You would Violate and cross the line
And you knew that I would be the type
To always wait so patiently
Thinkin' you was comin' home to me
Well damn, I never heard the keys
Or Felt your taps sayin' "are you asleep?"
Don't wanna play house no more
I Was so dumb to think you were gon' marry me
I've got to be out of my mind to think
That I need someone to carry me
I've done enough Cryin', cryin', cryin' (Cryin', cryin', cryin')
It's time to say Bye, bye, bye
It's time I do something for me
Been chasin' this fool around
Thinkin' he gon' hold me down
I would follow his lead
Thinkin' I would be the one he kept around
All that I needed: Real commitment
And I really couldn't see it
You're not the real man you said
You was gonna be in this relationship
So many men think
That all a girl needs is to be sold a dream
But I won't fall for it
Well you had me
The next dude will gladly pick up where you left off
Ice me
Wife me
You ain't gon' Have me
Enough cryin', cryin', cryin' (cryin', cryin', cryin')
It's time to say Bye, bye, bye
It's time I Do something For me
Any volunteers to go egg... Ha. As if. I learned my lesson the first time. Well I got a best friend out of it!
Ok, thank you note time!
Imane: Mon amour, ma vie... Tu m'as sauver la vie au moment ou j'voulais juste pas etre sauver... Je t'adore! We're gonna get through this together! And we're "bringing sexy back! YUP!". Ah, pis j'm'excuse de t'avoir stresser avec mon absence de "mangage"... J'ai manger un bol de soupe aujourd'hui! Woot!
Sare: Thanks for your amazing hug yesterday, I needed it! Love you! "Men suck, men suck, men suck FUCK" forever!
David: Well, it's official you've lost your "ex" title. But don't cry! It's gone on to someone much more worthy of the pure hatred involved in those two letters. Thanks again for all the happy happy joy joy last night... I needed someone to tell me I was pretty... And mean it!
Cody aka Drummer Dude: Thanks for calling me all the way from La Waterfall (get it? La Chute?!) last night, although it's long distance and putting such a... hmmm graphic image in my head. Let's just say, I didn't think about much else but what you told me to think about. My own private hypnotist! Yay!
Vero: Merci pour le calin hier, pis les gentils petits mots d'encouragement!
Anik et Stevou (!): Merci d'avoir endurer mon radottage, mes cris, mes pleurs pis mes rires niaiseux. Vous etes la pour moi les deux depuis plus d'un an, et j'vous adore! N'importe quoi que je peut faire pour vous depanner, vous me faites signes!
To all you other peeps I'm forgetting: I love you all, and thanks for making me smile/laugh/cry at a time when I needed it! It means the world to me to know that I have such great people in my life!
Ok. Enough about this. (Wow, longest post in my blog's history!)
News:
I'm getting my tongue pierced! :D
Any guys interested in testing the "better head" theory, inquire within LMAO
Also, today I went and vaccinated against hepatis B in a primary school. I got to poke 8 little kids! It was soooooo much easier than I thought. It goes in like nothing! I love it. Anyone want a shot?! Hihi
Anywho, I have a doctor's appointement at 4, I should go get showered and ready! Talk to y'all later!
Stephanie xoxox
posted by Stephanie B @ 10:27 AM
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